Whoops! Well I thought I had at least posted my second audition debriefing. But I guess I didn’t! I’m back in DE now and am starting to reflect on what the past week has been for me.
To start with: I didn’t get any callbacks, so that means I will not be going to grad school next year. I’m disappointed, of course, and my confidence has been shaken. I got a taste of what the business side of acting is really like, and it is intimidating. I don’t look forward to that part of it.
A quick word about each of the auditions:
- UC Irvine went much better than Brown did - I was much more comfortable and felt like I really demonstrated who I am.
- Juilliard was a great audition experience. Everyone was very friendly throughout the day and the audition panel was great. (Which kind of made it more disappointing that I didn’t get a callback)
- Yale was also a good audition for me. I felt successful in doing my work and presenting who I am. Had to travel to New Haven, CT to audition on Super Bowl Sunday (and then watched the game/the puppy bowl with friends in the city)
It was a simultaneously demoralizing and reinvigorating experience because I also got see so many of my friends and peers from the apprenticeship I did two summers ago. I was reminded of the inspiration I drew from them, and what great friends they are. I’m coming back to campus and going into this final semester feeling more grounded and inspired than I did leaving for the city.
And I m now free to choose to do anything come August of next year. I guess this is all part of being a senior - the future we see unfolding before us rapidly changing as it unfolds. It is, in a word, serendipity.